"I Told You So"....

What is it with a parents need to say that after a relationship ends??? Like I don't have enough crap in my life, I really, REALLY needed to hear that! And if they are going to say it, can they PLEASE be right about it, and not just say it to say...

On was on my way to lunch with my mother today. (went to Red Lobster) I am doing ok, but I still get a little upset from time to time, to be expected. My mom says how she hates to see me upset and hurting. Ok going good so far. She goes on to say that basically she was right all along and she "told me so"... So I asked "right about what?" That it was "all a lie". A lie... 9 years together, and she is saying it was all a lie? I had to stop her right there. NOBODY, absolutely NOBODY will ever tell me that it was all a lie. He loved me, he may not now, but he did!!!

That made me cry even harder. Later on she told me that she didn't mean it like that, and I know my mom, she didn't, but she never sees the good in things. All she sees is her daughter hurting and Rudy is to blame, because he broke my heart. But wouldn't it have been a lie to stay together? I am not happy because it's over, but if he's feelings changed, then I'd rather he let me go then live a lie. I love my Mom, and I know she meant well, I know it's not what she meant to say, she knows he loved me, she saw it, but it's that parents need to say "I told you so".

I am writing about this now because it hurts me, I feel like I have to defend the fact that we were in love and at the same time let that love go. I don't have the strength to do that yet.